Insomniac

It seems that I can't get with you,
Although I can't do without you,

I feel like I have a block in my mental,
So I had to write about you,

When you're not there, I display the harshest of rudes
It's easy to see that without you I get a swingin' of moods

I don't care if I'm seen out with you, I'm not easily embarrassed
If only for a couple hours of the day, you're presence is surely cherished

But what am I to do when you're not there at all?
Roll around continuously, awaiting your call..

Constantly trippin', wonderin if we can be
Prayin that for one nite you come to stay with me

I know you've been with others, but I'm not worried about the past
But whenever we played questions, there was one I forgot to ask...

We've always had an contract agreement, so for this you can't sue...
I need my 8 hours back, SLEEP...WHERE ARE YOU?!?!?!?!?

R.I.P Dolla

Although he was generally known for only one song, Dolla is yet another music artist (on a list that seems to keep getting longer and longer) that we've lost to gun violence. My condolences to his family and to everyone else that knew him. SMH

Atlanta rapper Dolla slain in Beverly Hills

By CHRISTIAN BOONE

The Atlanta Journal-Constitution

Monday, May 18, 2009

Atlanta rapper Dolla was killed Monday afternoon outside a popular Beverly Hills mall, his publicist has confirmed.

Dolla, born Roderick Anthony Burton II, was gunned down while waiting in the valet area of the Beverly Center, said publicist Sue Vannasing. He was accompanied by another local rapper, D.J. Shabbazz, and a fellow Jive Recording artist, Scrapp DeLeon.

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Rap artist Dolla, born Roderick Anthony Burton II, had a song, ‘Feelin’ Myself,’ featured on the ‘Step Up’ soundtrack

Los Angeles Police spokeswoman Karen Rayner said two “persons of interest” — one male, one female — are being questioned but neither has been charged in connection with the shooting. They were detained before attempting to board a plane out of Los Angeles International Airport, about 10 miles away from the Beverly Center.

Vannasing said Dolla, 21, was involved in an altercation before the shooting with an unidentified man and woman who followed him to the mall. A witness at the Beverly Center said Burton was shot by a woman, according to an L.A Times report.

Dolla had just arrived in Los Angeles earlier Monday, his publicist said. He was recording his first album, “Another Day, Another Dolla.”

“He had a very promising career,” Vannasing said. “He was being hyped as the next Tupac [Shakur]. He chose music to get off the streets.”

Burton moved to Atlanta when he was 5 after his father shot himself in front of the rapper and his sister.

“He was the man of the house,” Vannasing said.

His mother, Joyce Burton, still resides in Atlanta, where Dolla’s funeral will be held, Vannasing said.

News of the shooting spread rapidly on Twitter where, ironically, the rapper had just opened an account earlier in the day.

According to his official MySpace page, Burton began performing in local showcases at age 12 with his group, Da Razkals Cru. He was signed to Elektra Records in 2001, his site says. The label eventually dissolved and the group split in 2003, when Dolla said he returned to Atlanta to focus on a solo career.

“I was disappointed but all that made me do was work harder,” he said. “It was a stepping stone.”

He soon signed with Jive, where, collaborating with former Elektra acquaintance, Akon, released his first single “Who The F—- Is That?” featuring T-Pain.

“My music is universal,” Dolla said on his Web site. “I can do street music or pop music. But whatever I do, I attempt to make meaningful songs with substance.”

Keepin It 100....

Recently, as I've been paying close attention to the people in my circle, I've noticed that there is A LOT of fakeness around me. Not necessarily them showing it themselves, but things that they may speak on about their day-to-day lives that are filled with false, lame and in some cases very deceiving activities. This adds on to all of it that I'm experiencing myself and it makes me wonder this....Where are the REALISTS???

Now I know you may think the term "Realist" does not actually have anything to do with "keeping it real" at all times. Well that's true, but one definition for the word is -a person who takes the world as it is literally and deals with it accordingly. Why can't some people play with the hands they are dealt? It's always good to upgrade yourself and do better than the past, but is lying to make yourself LOOK better, really actually MAKING you better...Or is it just building a smoke screen for what is truly there? I think the latter...

In this note I will list things that I see as phony and also elaborate on them so everyone can completely understand where I'm coming from. It will range from things that I've noticed while away at school as well as at home...and also things from my personal experience as well as my circle's. I'm going to TRY not to touch the relationship aspect as much since it seems to be the trend in most of these...LOL...but i'm making NOOO promises.

1. Not Being Able To Keep A Steady Personality- I understand that not everyone has a good day, each and everyday. The days will come that one isn't in the mood to stop and converse, or sometimes even wave. BUT, the least someone can do is keep it steady. It's wild how drastic of a change we can see in someone's ENTIRE character over the course of a semester. People change, that's natural and positive (sometimes lol). But there is a line...which MANY step over habitually.

2. People Acting Like Something They're Not- It's crazy how people go to a completely different setting (Ex: College) and become a completely different individual. Now college is supposed to MOLD you, and that's all good. But when you start to talk and move like something you're not, the line has been crossed. For example, you can't be that one shy kid in high school that never spoke to anyone...had that one friend who used to always be attached at the hip because you felt uncomfortable w/o them...scared to cut the lunch line type and then three months later as a freshman in college you are extra loud, claiming a hood you truly never knew and swearing you'll swing on anyone when given the opportunity...NAAH, that's not you!

3. People That Fake Perfection- There is no man or woman on this earth that can truly claim perfection, so why is it hard for so many of us to cope with what we have? Now it's one thing to keep all of the issues to yourself. If you don't want to speak on them, so be it. After all it is YOUR problem. But don't lie on it to act like you are without a flaw. Personally, I know someone who is ashamed to ever say they don't have money. So, opposed to just saying they can't do something due to funds they would rather make up a string of lies until they get caught up in them. Word to the wise, people know you're not perfect...so attempting to look that way just makes you appear more phony.

4. Getting Caught and Still Lying- I know, it can be hard to admit that you lied. Who really wants to be looked at and labeled as a constant liar? But there is a point where you can't anymore. Recently, I have heard many stories in which someone went behind their friend's back (and against their trust) and committed acts of deception, but once the proof was set in stone and the liar's caught red-handed...they STILL claim innocence. Look, when you're caught...YOUR CAUGHT! Be a man/woman and admit, apologize and keep it moving. Regaining someone's trust is way easier to do when they don't have to lose ALL of it before you decide to fess up!

5. Using The Past To Not Accept The Present- Of course, with everything real, comes 1,000 things fake. But I hate...well not hate, but dislike when someone doesn't take my word for what it is. If I tell you something, TAKE IT! Don't listen to what I say, and then look at your past and makeup your own twisted definition of what I said. Then once realizing that I was being serious say "Well, how was I supposed to know you really meant that, because when in the same situation with Jason, Christina, Mike, Jenny and Drew..they weren't serious." Come on now...like I said there is a lot of fake out there, but when it is MY word..rest assure you can take it EXACTLY how it is given.

6. Smiling In Someone's Face That You Don't Like- If you don't like someone, show it. I'm not saying go and beat their head in whenever possible, but just keep it 100! I don't understand how someone can speak, eat, shake hands, and travel with the same person they tell others that they despise for this and that reason. If you don't like me, and I say what's up...walk right past me! Don't have a full conversation with me...for me to hear later that you were clowning me just before you walked towards me. If you walk past me, at least I know you're being real and if that's how you feel, that's how I feel.

7. People That Lie To Make Themselves Look Better In A Scenario- Now this kind of touches on #3, but I wanted to go a different direction with it. As an example, let's say someone is acting immature in a particular situation towards another. Of course, they don't want to keep it bottled in so they tell the story to another person for guidance. But instead of telling the story like it happened, they create their own far fetched tale for the listener's pleasure. Hmmm, but why can't they just tell the story how it went down? Simple..They KNOW they were wrong. If you are looking for precise advice in a situation, your best bet is to KEEP IT 100! Don't fabricate things you did in the story, because you don't want to look foolish yourself. If you're going to do that, you may as well keep it bottled in! Don't slaughter the other person's character just to save yours.

8. Keeping it Real Yourself, But Not Being Able To Be Kept Real With- Now as I write this note I KNOW, not every point may be felt (Imagine That). Just as I called myself "Keepin it 100", I'm open to each and every response I may get. I despise when people like to talk about others like they themselves have no issue, but then when someone gives them the slightest bit of constructive criticism they get defensive. Everyone has their flaws and if we don't allow others to catch a few of them for us..how will ever get AS CLOSE to perfection as we can get??..Exactly, WE CAN'T!

Overall, I just feel like if everyone kept it real the world would be so much better off. Fake is a weakness. Whether it's fakeness in one's personality or even in their "swag". If everything that was said didn't have to be read into deeper than just that, things would go much more SMOOTHLY!